Is it really worth it?

So a week has passed since I've been in London and alot of mishaps happened in between. I've been through alot of emotional, mental and physical destruction in London that I feel like an old war-torn building. Being in such a state I can barely appreciate the beauty of this city, the history and the depth. I want to know London better and learn to love this place but with the anxiety attacks it really shallows my thoughts about London.

I spent two nights crying, once to my boyfriend and once to my mom and sister, all about missing home and how much I want to head back to NYC. It's very miserable and very unlike me because I'm a very independent person who can travel anywhere and be fine. I've traveled alone before and live in a city outside of the states without family or bf. This seems different though, it's definitely a new area of comfort I've never even looked into and has now attacked me face forward.

I joined a gym to try to ease my anxiety and stress. I need to put my mind off being away from home and learn to make London "like home". I'm slowly getting there, meaning that I try to take control of my sleep.

Day by day as classes are coming together, I will love london! I MUST because my backup plan is not pretty =[

Love,

Me.