Going to london in about a month, I learned early in the semester that I won't be having a meal plan. This is very interesting for me because I can go crazy and eat whatever I want and cook whatever I want. I won't be wasting meals plans or be concerned that I won't have enough for the rest of the week. However, I am terrified though because I come to realize that I have actually been struggling with my weight for awhile now. No, it's not struggling to stay skinny or lose fat, it's struggling to maintain a certain weight and muscle mass for a long period of time.
I remember when I was about 8 years old, my doctors told me I was UNDERweight and prescribed me medication that would increase my appetite. No hope because I still was underweight till about high school when I started joining sports teams. Why is that society gives us these "check" boxes to place us into a category? I was healthy but I feared being under that "norm" weight or over that "norm" weight. Joining the swim team and track team at the same time put alot of pressure on my muscle mass. I dare say had a banging body when I was freaking 15 and pretty much lost it once I dropped the sports team in college.
Now, sophomore year in college and I've gained 15lbs. Yes, I've been hit by that darn freshman 15 except it doesn't stop at freshman year! I keep fluctuating between my weight and obviously that is not good. There is always focus on people who are anorexic or obese... but this shit is pretty bad when you can't maintain a weight for a substantial amount of time. Hopefully in London I can learn to eat in moderation, not too little or too much, exercise and drink water.
P.S. 10 days till XMAS!
AMAZEBALLS!
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