I am still writing my proposals on the effects of global climate change on refugees. I love this topic and everything, but for me to write a proposal is very scary because my TA told me to act as if I'm going to save the world with my words and these 8 pages.
There are many things I wish to do, in order to save the world. This past semester has been the my worst semester based on grades but I've learned the most than I ever did in semester where my grades were quite amazing. Most of classes now focus on very specific topics, which is very beneficial cause now I am able to determine where I want my focus to be. Being an International Relations and Political Science major is pretty saying "I can do whatever I want".
My interest seems to be drawn towards alot of pain and misery in this world. Ever since I was a child a strive for some sort of attention and always wanted to be a superhero without a mask. I know it sounds very shallow but to be honest... Why would I do something without getting credit for it? It's like writing a research paper and handing it in anonymously... I WANT MY FREAKING A! All my classes has assigned me presentations and papers on things such as refugees, human trafficking or same-sex marriage statistics. I want to represent that small amount of people that are living with that mask on everyday. I can barely keep my mask on for a masquerade party.
I feel confident with what I'm doing but apparently it doesn't reflect my grades this semester. I am having trouble putting the pieces together but right now I feel really good having the pieces in general. I was going in to this double-major phenomenon as if it was only headlights in a foggy road but now I see the road at least 25 miles ahead of me.
People shouldn't always believe that "going with the flow" is what works best. I've tried both ways and planning and mapping a goal in the future is what keeps me going. Going with the flow is an excuse for those to buy time so that they can one day find a box of pieces and begin putting the puzzle together.
Hahaha. I'm confident with my majors, but I have no idea wtf I'm doing with my life. And I tend to want to blog when I shouldn't too haha. That's why I'm earning an A+ in procrastination =)
ReplyDeleteAnd I like going with the flow while having a layout of a plan? Like, I have an idea of where I wan to be and where I want to go, but not everything is 100% planned out yet.
PS BLOG A LOT WHEN YOU'RE IN LONDONTOWN. I am so incredibly jealous you have no idea.